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I am not happy. it is 1am and I have tried and tried again to fall asleep but my brain just keeps on going on and it wouldn't let me rest I am so tired. My day to day routine has become rather stagnant. I've only ever started working for the past half of the year and now there's this existential dread that I am feeling from time to time. I used to have people to talk to where I can talk to for hours on end without no bore whatsoever. Right now I'm realising that most of my life I have put a lot of focus on my communication with other people that I don't remotely know how to deal with being alone with my thoughts. I't has been quite some time since I've had a conversation face to face with someone other than my family. I don't resent them whatsoever yet I feel like that has been some sort contribution to why I'm feeling this way. I only ever ask to be with someone where I can talk to and enjoy doing so without holding back my thoughts. I had a dream recently. It felt rather real and

I know I have neglected page for some time now but I assure you I am going to do my best to get better. These past couple of years I have been busy studying diploma and degree back to back and even though I do draw during those times I never seem to find myself having a fun time when I draw. So when I finished studying I finally have the time and place to draw. Moving around really didn't give me the mood to draw. Anyways I know nobody is going to read this anyway. If anything, let me just reintroduce myself. The name is Kal and some people call me Mang. I am an Illustrator and a graphic designer. Nice to meet you! I hope we can become good